Lost In you…..
We all have that pivotal point in our life when we were LOST in HIM!!!
Sloshing and basking in his presence
I recall a time in my life when I went on Aim to
It was a horrible lonely time, but it was one of the most refreshing saturated times in my life.
I remember praying for hours and getting up not realizing where the time had past
I made more notes from my Bible than I ever had
I had journals filled after the Three months of what I felt the Lord someday wanted out of me.
It was also a great time of trials-
I was doing 21 Bible Studies at that time (a week) after Cold calling people from the phone book.
After one Bible Study a Demon Possessed person entered into the Room with a broken bottle and held it up to my neck demanding money. I started praying, rebuking, and calling on the name of Jesus. She fled wild eyed and we thanked the Lord together. I would see her daily in the trees hissing at me. I recall the night she came to church and felt the Lord for the first time.
I picked up kids for the Kids Club/VBS/Youth group all smashed into one- WE had a van and thus could get them. I recall one night a huge fight breaking out in the older group. One kid had run out broken a bottle and had returned to cut up another kid (what is up with the broken bottles there). They were by the Baptismal and I just remember again calling on the name of Jesus and the boy running out.
One night- my apartment was in the midst of being broken into and the Lord woke me up by calling my name in the Local Pastor’s voice. I woke up saying I hear you I will be right there. I scrambled to get my robe and turned on lights etc. In the process I scared away the thieves- and did not even know it. In the morning- their tools were still there as they were attempting to break in with a crow bar and had bent the frame- The door had to be cut out.
That Summer I saw 26 kids receive the Holy Ghost and when I left there was a youth group. But I only say all of those things to say this- It was the Loneliest – yet one of the best times of my life.
I recall on my Birthday sitting alone at a small wooden table with my x-small pizza and I put a candle in it and sang to myself. All the while questioning if I was really supposed to be there. In the middle of my solo Birthday Song the power went out and I started to cry. Then I felt such a sweet presence of God I got up did not eat my pizza and just sat with Jesus for a bit!! Probably one of the best gifts I have ever received.
I had no money (My Aim Supporters forgot about me when I got there), I had no friends (but my MAIN FRIEND HIM). But I saw the Lord work in an awesome way.
The floodgates of this memory came back to me today- because I thought of all of the times in my life- when did I feel him the most?? When I was the loneliest.
I was alone- But he was with me
I was weak- but with him accomplished what I set out to do.
Whoever you are today out there reading this- HE has called you to this part of your life for you to bask in him. This is a lonely, solitary point in time…but HE has called you away to be with him.
I know am crying as I type (and praying my co-workers don’t walk in) as I can see you sitting there reading this- feeling alone, hurt, misunderstood.
It doesn’t matter. He is sitting right next to you- with open arms. Ready to draw you in.
Today- Inhale him
And watch what the Lord is going to do through you!