Tuesday, November 10, 2009

Things that have been rumbling around in my head lately....


SO I have been told that since I moved to Arkansas I:

1. Don't keep in touch anymore.
2. I have become an introvert.
3. I am not funny anymore.
4. I don't call, write, or blog as much.

Hmmm

I might have ignored this if it came from only one source but it has come from quite a few. So while I have been pondering why this is I saw a mental picture of my life-

I saw two plants and two little seedlings. They were being pulled up out of the dirt and being re-planted to another field. The field was equally rich, watered, and tended to in both areas; it was just time for the plant to move. The farmer knows best and has plans for his harvest.

During this process the two plants were pausing to make sure the seedlings were doing okay. They themselves were re-rooting, getting established, and digging deep. Some days they drooped, other days they flourished- but they came first in the plants life.

Fall is approaching and roots have to be secure. Time, shade, nutrients, shelter, care, prayer, and extra nurishment have had to be given to the seedlings so that they would be steady during the time of the transplant. There has been an audible exhale from the two plants as the two seedlings have taken root and are beginning to flourish.

In the past few weeks I have felt my own roots attach to the earth again. I have felt the ease, the lifting of the load as I have sensed my path. I look over at my fellow taller, stronger plant and am equally amazed at how the Lord is using him in such a great way. He has had his hand over him in the past 5 months. He is now the only one from his department that has a job. All of the others are gone. God has continued to provide for our needs. We daily pray for favor on his job.

So you see- I have not forgotten you, fallen out of love with you, don't find you equally intoxicating- I have just been..... I guess in process. I still get goose bumps when someone leaves a comment, or just likes a blog post. I still check my counter daily to see if anyone is reading, and I still get a crooked smile when you do!

This past week I went to go see my Mom in St. Louis. The girls and I just drove up on Thursday and back on Saturday. It was a great girls outing. John had a project at work and could not leave. We celebrated Mom's birthday, went to Red Robin, and even squeezed in some quick shopping. I got all of the MK Christmas gifts together from MK Ministries. One hundred forty gifts have been labled and are ready to go out. I also worked on giving names of MKs to the 150 people who are donating a second gift for our MKs. I was overwelmed by the love of God's people.

Last night while making pancakes for dinner I had a call from an MK going through some things. After we talked I put the phone down on the counter and said a quick prayer for him. During that time the powder from my pancake batter got all over my phone. This morning while taking Emma to school she handed me my phone. Mom- she said- your head is coming off and getting all over your phone. I thought- Hmm maybe that is why I can't return phone calls. It was actually the powder from the pancakes still waiting for me to rinse it off. Hey my blackberry needs to eat too people.

So I don't know where you are in your journey today. Maybe you are getting some leaves pruned, maybe you are being transplanted, maybe you are re-establishing yourself in the richness of his soil. Know this- the master planter is always near. He hears your every sigh, knows the weights, the worries that you carry, and even knows when you need to rest; bask in his goodness and just breathe. He is tending to your daily needs and is carrying you!

Thursday, November 05, 2009

My Secret Powers

I am getting ready to hit the road and got up to St. Louis for two days- I should be on the road right now. I wanted to share two secret powers I have with you. One- I can read my own mind. Two- I can walk even if I have tights on - in-side-out. Don't be jealous...

I am sure you have secret powers of your own- What are they??

CMN

Tuesday, November 03, 2009

MK Christmas Gifts


It's Beginning to look a lot like Christmas- well it is at your local Target!

This year why not send a Christmas gift to a Missionary Kid? We need your help! If you are interested in doing this please leave me a comment with your email address or you can email me at Cylindanickel@gmail.com.

Make the difference in the life of someone else this year. What a great family project!

Thanks for reaching out!

CMN

Friday, October 30, 2009

Things I love about Fall....



Kids in costume.....




Beautiful Trees....




Fat waddling pumpkins....




Hot apple cider....




What's your favorite thing about Fall?

Thursday, October 29, 2009

Great Blog-


Today I found a great blog written by MK Kandra Robertson-

She is an excellent writer!

If you get a chance go over there and check it out- It is worth the read. She has wisdom far beyond her years!

Happy Wednesday Bloggers it is raining (shock) and 74 out.

I got the best package from my sister-in-law Penny. Little Halloween Goodie bags from Mrs. Fields cookies! Do I have the best family or what???

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

Sometimes.....



I get so frustrated with myself for being frustrated with others......

I can get short, out of patience, and even hurtful sometimes with those that are around me.

Why does that happen?

The ones that I am to nurture
The ones that were given for my care
The ones that I would die to protect

I can harm with my tongue?

Yesterday was one of those days. I was told by Emma's teacher that she needed to start reading allowed to strengthen her reading. The whole process is similar to going to the dentist- but it seems to last longer and is done without the aid of numbing Novocaine.

She will stop in the middle of reading and want to talk, sing, comment, chat about what I am currently doing, and frankly find any way to just plain ignore reading. Yesterday I told her that every time she stopped I was going to add 2 minutes to the timer. That made her flustered. She then kept asking me to tell her every word that she did not know. She did not want to learn them herself, or sound the words out. She just wanted the answer.

I stopped her and said- This is your reading time. You have to learn to sound these words out. You have to do this- this is not my reading time. You are not going to be a stronger reader until you apply yourself.

She burst into tears. I said why don't you take five minutes and we will go from there. She ran into her room and cried. I felt immediately felt horrible.

What I was saying was actually the truth. It was her reading time- I was accurate in everything that I communicated to her but I was not doing it with love. I was doing it in frustration. The words had leapt out of my mouth, taken on the form of darts, and were piercing her one by one. The point that I was trying to convey was lost by my harmful delivery.

She was crying so hard I could hear her gasping for breath. You know what I mean- the hiccuping sound that you and I make when we are crying. The sound that comes out when you want to talk but you jerk each word to the point of nonrecognition. I knocked on her door and asked her if I could come in.

I put her in my lap and talked to her. I said Emma- I am sorry for the way I was talking to you. I really meant what I said but I said it the wrong way. I did not mean to hurt you. We talked some more and I asked her to forgive me for my shortness. Later on that night she finished the best 10 minutes in her reading history. I think she only asked for help on two words. She beamed when the timer went off. I noticed that I had not been holding my breath during the 10 minute reading time. What was the difference? The feeling of love, acceptance, knowing that someone was in your corner, and that her nest had been re-feathered.

How many times have I hurt someone with my words and have not even known it? I might have been too busy to stop and really listen to someone, or help them. Maybe a MK called with a need and I was trying to get the girls in bed, or was busy running around doing several things at once.

Last night I was on the phone with an MK who was in need. I stopped everything that I was doing and gave him 100% of my attention. After he talked for about 35 minutes he said- I am sorry for taking time away from you family. He then went on to say that he could get a hold of his Mom today and just needed to know that everything would be okay. He hung up by saying thanks for really listening and loving all of us.

After I hung up the phone I had to go find a quiet place to just steal away and pray. Lord help me to not quickly forget the lessons that I learned. Guard my tongue, open up my heart to share you love, your words, and your thoughts and not my own. Help me to pour confidence and value into others. Make me acceptable in your sight.

Does this mean that I have "conquered" this? Absolutly not. I am sure down the road it will happen again. I pray it is none to soon, and that I will hold my tongue, listen, and love.

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

It's not everyday that I have the right words to say


so I will simply borrow these lyrics from Kari Jobe today-

Here, before Your altar,
I am letting go of all I've held
of every motive, every burden,
everything that's of myself.
and I just wanna wait on You my God
I just wanna dwell on who You are.

beautiful, beautiful oh I am lost for more to say
beautiful, beautiful oh Lord, You're beautiful to me

oh beautiful

here in Your presence,
I am not afraid of brokenness
to wash Your feet with humble tears
oh I would be poured out till nothing's left.
and I just wanna wait on You my God