Tuesday, April 19, 2011

Some Days are just Big Fat Flops....

I failed at being a great Mom today.
I woke up with a fever and chills and a voice that was gone. 
I don't even remember getting the girls hair done, telling them goodbye or praying with them.
I know I did these things- but was out of it.

I failed at being a friend to someone that reached out to me today.
The return phone call was never made.

I failed at being the Kidzlife Children's Pastor to one of my teachers today.
She called with a question and I did not get the phone call back to her.

I failed at answering an email today from an MK~ I prayed over what she asked about~ but she is yet to know that.

I did not hug my girls when they came home.
I only quickly asked how their days were and let them go on auto-play.
I did not really ask my husband how his day was.
I did not count my points to my food today for Weight Watchers.
I did not dust the furniture.
I did not get caught up on the laundry.
I did not get the floors clean.
I did not press any situations that I would have normally pressed through. 
I did not answer a lot of text.
I did not respond to a lot of emails.

What did I do? I experienced God's unmerited favor and grace in my life today.
I felt him meet me at 9:30 PM when I stopped to tell him some days I am a just a big flat flop.
I felt his presence just wash over me and he wrapped his arms of love right around me and told me that tomorrow was a new day. He told me that I have nothing to prove to him- he loves me.

What did I do? I experienced a miracle of God today. When I went to bed last night there was a huge problem that needed to be solved. At 1:30 Am after going through all of the list that I could go through, after consulting every website I could, after thinking every thought I could on the matter- The Lord told me to go to bed and rest. I woke up today- followed his instructions- took some risk and the Lord came through.

What did I do? I snuck into my girls rooms and prayed over their darling heads as they slept. I kissed each of their foreheads as tears fell from my eyes. I prayed for God's divine anointing and favor to rest upon them. I prayed for his wisdom and for them to know that HE is here for them daily.

I hear the voice, the voice of the one I love,
He's calling my name.
I hear the voice, the voice of the one I love,
He's calling my name.

He's saying, come up higher, you'll hear the angels sing.
Come up higher my beloved,
Come up higher and leave this world behind.
You'll find me to be beautiful

I am running, running after You
You become my souls delight
I am running, running after You,
Here with You I find my life


Anonymous said...

It is good to know that I am not the only one who has big fat flop days! Thanks for your encouraging words.

Girly Muse said...

Love you, Cylinda. You bless me. I pray that same peace you had yesterday fills you today. XO

Kathy McElhaney said...

I'm sorry you've been sick. Praying for a speedy recovery.

You ARE a great mom, even on the days that are big fat flops.

Danan said...

I am left thinking of a statement from an African friend...
"Some days are just like that."
I'm so thankful for the loving arms of Jesus. They hold us tightly when we feel as if we're the worst failure in the world!
Awesome post! It blessed me.