Tuesday, February 15, 2011


I woke up today to tell the girls goodbye and then went back to bed. Sleep was not my friend last night.

The second time I woke up I screamed at the top of my lungs. It felt great. The kind of scream that makes your throat hurt. The kind that makes you feel like you are going to pass out because your air is leaving faster than it is coming in. That kind of scream.

I then walked into the bathroom and screamed again. This time it was after seeing how red my bloodshot eyes were from lack of sleep.

Sometimes a good scream makes you feel normal. Like if you were to get rid of all of the junk that is sitting on top of your brain not allowing you to breathe. It is as though if you express enough emotion all at once- the weirdness of life will stop and regular will step in.

It has been a crazy, stressful, and strange weekend. I can't even go into any details which makes it all the worse.

But I will tell you this. GOD is on the throne, GOOD things are one the Way, and after you scream your throat really does hurt.

In fact it feels a little raw.

I do have to share something funny with you though. It is about a dream I had from the time frame of about 2-3 AM last night. How do I know? Because I was waking up every hour looking at the clock. I dreamt that I was on a reality dating show and I was not married. The guy that I was on the "date" with looked at me and looked at my stomach. He said- wow I don't want to be rude- but why is your stomach so large? I said oh that? I just have parasites and worms. He said -what kind of business are you in? I said- I rescue Missionary Kids. He said good to know- like religious work? I said yes. He said okay - great meeting you I think our date is over.

I remember waking up and thinking was our date over because of my large parasite, worm belly or because I work with MKs? What a strange dream.

Okay- I am sure this is my strangest post ever- but happy that I sat down and actually posted today. Do you like my new background?

Love you bloggy buddies.


Paula said...

Yes, I love the new background, I like anything that has to do with Globes. Thank you for your post,it's real, life is really real. But like you said, God's still on the throne!

Girly Muse said...

It is a nice background.
Thank God you don't have parasites OR that wretched man.
Love you!

Kathy McElhaney said...

I noticed your background immediately - perfect!

I've been on some dates that I WISH had been over as quickly as your "dream" date! Hope you're sleeping better.

Jane Girl said...

Hmmm... MY dream was better. :) Hopefully you've had many restful nights to make up for this one.