Tuesday, January 08, 2008
Walk with Me- December 14, 2007
Today the Lord challenges me with three simple words- Walk With Me.
I cry as I type them.
I don’t want to walk. I want to sit at your feet and rest.
NO walk with me.
I don’t want to walk. I am still hurt
Your bruises will heal when you move
I don’t want to move- I want to pause, sit still, and not be noticed
Be obedient and Walk with me
No- I have been stripped of everything- I am off balance and I have lost my coordination- walking requires coordination
Walk with me
I can’t- what if I don’t know what that path is
I am walking with you
But I like this spot of the grass- remember you brought me here by the quiet bench to sit
Remember how when I sat I started seeing the ugly scars that I did not even know where there, the horrible things I had shoved to the back part of my heart, the pride issues I had, the workaholic tendencies that paralyze me? Remember? Remember when I paused- I was still and saw the hard glances that were coming my way- how I was hurt ...and you said I needed to rest? Well I don’t know if I want those hard glances again.
IT is time
No – it is not, my legs are Jell-O, my heart can’t take the pressure of the walk, and my faith is a little rough around the edges.
Shabbiness is what I desired- You have gotten it wrong for so long- you can’t even see the rightness in this- My grace has always been sufficient for you- but you would never bask in it. You had to have movement to push out the sound of the crowd- but that also pushed out the sound of me.
Well see all the more I don’t need to move- I need to sit and still listen
You are ready!!
Ready for What? What if I fail? What if I get hurt? What if I get shoved? What if I can't really hear? Have you thought about that?
That is right- because now you understand- none of this is about you- It’s all about me. For I place you where I need you, for when I need you, and it is my hand that repositions you. And I say walk.
Maybe if I just take baby steps
You will get the hang of it
What if the grass that I was sitting at needs me?
It will be fine.
What if they hate me?
They won’t. Again- It’s not about you- It’s about you letting them see me!
I am with you always
What if you loose my address?
I am by your side.
Do you really have doors you are going to open up before me?
And they are ready to spring open?
Then what are we waiting for- Let me just brush myself off- This is your idea right?
Am I stalling?
Do you ever say anything else but yes?
Yes- Don’t you remember over the past couple of years when you cried pleaded, promised, begged and I said no? Now I am saying yes!
Psalms 37: 23-25
23. The Steps of a good man are ordered by the Lord:
And he delighteth in his way.
24. Though he fall, he shall not be utterly cast down:
For the Lord upholdeth him with his hand.
25. I have been young, and now am old: Yet have I
Not seen the righteous forsaken, nor his seed begging bread.